The Waiting Game

I had my ct/bone scan about three days ago & have not received the results yet.  I thought I might be a little more anxious, but surprisingly I have come to think that no news is good news.  And anyway, I just dropped off my cd of scans from the mainland today - so that they could make comparisons.  Any news now would be irrelevant...so, I sit here & wait patiently.

Those of you who know me well, know that I can't work & that I was "let go" with disability benefits.  Well, it's been a little over 6 months since I left my job & not only am I bored, but some extra income wouldn't hurt.  So, after doing some research, looking at companies like Avon or Mary Kay, & getting some feed back from my family, I've decided to go into a candle business called Scentsy. 

 Scentsy uses a warmer, wax, & a lightbulb to safely bring wonderful fragrance into your home.  I found out about Scentsy when I went shopping at a craft fair.  I bought the kit & was immediately hooked on the product. The amount of smell that came from such a small amount of wax was impressive.  One large warmer can make a three bedroom, one bath home smell absolutely wonderful.  In fact, I use my warmer everyday.  And, it is better than regular candles that has a flame - the warmer uses a lightbulb to safely melt the wax, so ideally you could use it 24/7 & not have to worry about starting a fire.  If you are interested in learning more, please leave me a message at my email - hawngrl@hotmail.com.

Well, that's about it for now.  I will blog again when I get my results from the doctor.  Oh yah, & before I forget...my blood counts have been low again, so my doctor took me off Xeloda until my next chemotherapy on the 28th.  More details later.  Ciao!

Still angry...

I was doing something the other day...I can't seem to think of what it is that I was exactly doing (thanks chemo brain) but, I just remember being full of anger & that's when I realized that I am still a little angry.  I say a little because I can control & recognize it immediately.  I know it's not healthy to be angry...trust me, I'm not letting the anger control me, but I still am.

My blood counts are still low.  Tomorrow I go for a blood test, ct scan (yummy barium drink), & bone scan.  Although I am not looking forward to drinking the barium, I am rather glad to be completing all my scans at one time.  The blood test is to check my white cell count.  If it's still low, the doctor will have me take a Neupogen shot.  I'm hoping & praying that my counts are great...I don't want to have to take a break from chemo.  If that happens, I'm asking the doctor to consult my doctor in Texas before any decision is made.

Anyway, will let you all know the outcome of my scans.  Until then, thank you for reading & praying for me.

Just another day in paradise...

It's Monday morning & I've got absolutely nothing to do...no doctor's appointments, no errands to run, no nothing.  It's a free day all to myself & I don't know what to do with it.  I surfed the web, checked my email, farmed on facebook...gee, I guess I could curl up in bed & watch some tv or I could jump on the treadmill & do 20 minutes of cardio while watching tv.  Anyway, I'm just thankful that I've got some free time to myself.

Did I tell you that my daughter started school?  And, that she loves it?  I chose (not my husband-he has different views & opinions) to send her to a private school rather than a public one.  With all these budget cuts & furlough Fridays, I don't feel completely confident in our public school system.  Yes, private school can be costly, but I figure if I invest in her now, the rewards will be greater later on.  Hopefully, if she decides to go to college, scholarships will be available to her. 

Well, I can't think of anything else to write...until next time...

Hyper, not sleepy...

From my last entry, my chemo was delayed...once for shingles & a second time for a fingernail infection.  Also, my viral load for my hepatitis b is slightly detectable, so they are changing my medication.  I pray for no more delays in my chemo schedule.  For some reason having that stuff running thru my veins makes me feel safe.  Weird I know, but very true.

I just had my first chemo of the new year, & instead of it making me sleepy, the next day I was very hyper & full of energy.  So much that I managed to clean the house, did a load of laundry, cooked lunch & dinner, & washed a lot of dishes.  I'm wondering if it's the steroids that they give me?  I'm also very, very thirsty & my taste buds are slowly changing for the worse.  For about 10 - 15 fifteen days I lose my taste, everything taste like cardboard.  But, something also very weird happens, for some reason the sweet & the salty are intensified, so much that it ruins anything that I'm so used to eating.

Anyway, I hope you all had a great holiday season.  Santa was very generous to Kanoe this year & got her everything she wanted & then some. She is enjoying everything especially the Hello Kitty bike & V Tech camera.  It's neat looking at the pictures she takes, it's like the view of the world thru her eyes.  She is in school now & loving every minute of it.  I'm glad we were able to get her into preschool even though she missed almost 3 months from us being in Texas.

Well, that's about it for now.  I'll try to blog more often.  Sorry for the delays.  In the meantime, take care & God Bless!